New noo!

I'm the second week in on a new cycle of nootropics:

Get Smart! and Pay Attention!

I just adore these product names.

For those not in the know, nootropics (or cognitive enhancers) are chemical or mineral supplements taken to increase productivity in the brain on a physiological level, to yield higher cognition or improved mood (both are important to learning).

I tried a cycle of nootropics a few years ago, but quickly developed a dislike for how many pills I had to take 2 to 3 times a day to yield a desired effect. I fantasized about having enough money to buy the powders for various nootropics in bulk and encapsulate my own doses, but lacked the funds (common problem in my fantasies. That, and not have four prehensile penises).

I know my nootropics (fairly well, I'm not a bio-chem student) and the list of ingredients on those two products far outdoes any shit brain booster you'd buy at vitamin shoppe, so I decided to give it a go.

I've been prescribed various stimulants for ADHD and ADD (yes, I have both. Don't ask me, ask the dipshit medical system that allows doctors to prescribe for a symptom for which they know no cause... and the psychologist who had to evaluate me for a borderline personality disorder based on the conflicting diagnosis), so I'm familiar with the effects of a pharmaceutical cognitive enhancer as a point of contrast.

What I discovered was that the combination of these two supplements yielded the best aspects of adderal: enhanced focus, awareness, processing speed, and none of the downers: over-stimulation, attenuation of focus, emotionlessness, appetite suppression, and anger or irritation.

I felt focused, clearly focused, but without the cracked out edge. That, and it doesn't make my skin break out. The downside is the cost, so far.

I'll know more in another two weeks. I'm keeping a day-by-day brief log of notes on how it's making me feel, etc.

-Sean

It's interesting that with such a crazy life, I find so little to write about. I think it's part of the blog problem. Nobody talks about their feelings on blogs, because the people who read their blogs are their friends, and the people who they'd most likely discuss are their friends.

It's not as if we go somewhere else in the world and become someone different for a brief time, only to return as someone else who can write unfettered by complaint or molestation from those indicted by their tales.

I could change all the names, but those who know me know who I'm talking about.

So what do I write about? Musings? Harmless fictions?

Ugh.

-Sean